The whole story

The context

Last week I had exams, the last one was today, all went pretty badly, none of them are going to turn good (maybe a little above average if the teachers are nice lmao), but I highly doubt being able to get anything above that, so I’m already feeling very sad and disappointed because of that…

The weekend before the worst exam of all three

We ate Raclette, I used to love that when I was a kid… but it’s been a while since it started making me sick when I ate some, I still like the taste, but I just can’t… and that day (I think it was Saturday), I wanted to wake up early to get a decent rhythm before the last exam, but I failed miserably, so I woke up and the first thing I smelled was the insane amount of Raclette cheese fat that was about to make me puke… and I didn’t even get the chance to sit at the table that I was running to the toilets to puke. I ended up eating some pastas… with cheese (well I still love cheese lmao).

The day before

I decide to start reading books two hours before going to sleep, and not stare at any screen, so I read for a while, then went to the kitchen, drank a little and got back in my room, to sleep this time, I was very tired.
I tried to sleep for 4 hours… except, for the third time in three exam eves (usually never happens), my parent and my brother decide to watch funny stuff and laugh and prepare coffees, etc…
Then a FUCKING PLANE flies above us (high of course, but it was the first plane coming from my village’s aerodrome in months… because of COVID, since it’s a private club usually just letting people come fly with them, they were partially closed, and it’s even more uncommon that they do it at night…
The whole village was against me sleeping… even my radiator was making an awful amount of useless sound…
And I think the worst about this night was… the random clove taste I had in mouth for no reason whatsoever…
I slept at around midnight…

Today…

I wake up at 6:53 AM, I had to take my train at 7:29 AM… I prepare my stuff, I read my messages, and I eat some cereals… I then leave home and half way to the train station I notice I forgot my face mask (mandatory in the train), I run back home, get one, and run back to the train station (I had 2 and a half minute to run a 3 minute run when it’s not icy…)
While I was running… I’m starting to feel bad… I wanted to puke… I give up running, I had no chance of getting that train, I had a minute left, was about to puke and still had about half of the run to do, I just walk back home, my father told me he could drive me to school if needed, while walking back… I puke, second time in less than a week, first time in years that this happens to me…
I had nothing to clean myself or to drink so I just went home with a terrible vomit taste in mouth… it was terrible, I just wanted to die lmao.
I get home, drink, eat a banana, get ready again and my dad drives me to school.
I try to get in the school but they closed a door during COVID for some reasons (it’s the least used door of the whole building… but it had to be closed), so I then have to run around it, go up the 73 (something like this) stairs I had to climb because my closet is at the highest place of the school… I put my stuff in it, go back, have to cross the whole school, go up some stairs, and I’m FINALLY at my exam class… I tell the teacher I puked and that I may have to run to puke again during the exam, start the exam… and well I will not explain everything that went wrong… but basically, think about the exam you failed the most in your life, add a little bit of fast work at the end because you finally get unstuck where you had a problem and add a few points because this teacher counts everything you did and not only the results… and you get my mark…

I’m not even sure I’ll pass this semester without being penalized… and it makes me so fucking disappointed after all the work I put in school for the first time since I was 12 years old…

I know this whole story isn’t that bad… it’s just the feeling that it gives me that is the worst in really long time… I feel like I let myself, my parents and my teachers down just because everything went bad…

Anyway, have a great day